thank you for being there when i truly needed it the most
THANK YOU!
Third attack came last night at 3.30am
damn painful in the stomach, as if "things" got
tangled up, twisted like nobody's business!
Small pressure on stomach may cause me to vomit.
All numbed, I can't move~
each movement contributes millions of shattered glass
poking through me.
but luckily, this time my eye sight n hearing were still fine.
No seeing dark spots, and no "blockage" of sound in ears.
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First attack, 2002
Time: During band practice
same symptoms+fainted while struggling my way to washroom.
only for few secs~
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Second attack, 11th July 2008
Time: Peak hour, ard 4.30pm, journey back home in bus
same symptoms+almost faint
THANK YOU gor! Luckily you were there for me.
Else if anything were to happen, I'm smoked~
Thank you veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy muchhhhhhhh
*hugs*
I've promised to go for check up IF the third attack ever come
but third time came~
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Third attack, 30th July 2008
Time: 3.30am, while chatting with matt
same symptoms+luckily no faint
THANK YOU matt for being there!
[Matt]
huh? give me ur house num
//
if u happens to faint, miss call me. i'll wake up ur family
//
chanting for u now
//
Im just a sms/call away. 24hrs on
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Today
[matt]
hey IF Fourth time were to happen~ seriously i'll drive to
your house and we're going to hospital together.
//
consult a doc ASAP. u need treatment man~
//
I'll let ur dad know if u dun wana tell
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I have no courage to tell dad~ WHY MAN WHY??
guess i need to change my lifestyle~
my diet~ everything!
thank you for being there when i needed most.
knowing your accompaniment at least it comforts me when
Im in such condition
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
The Shoten Zenjin in Life
minds are powerful, sometimes it's harmful.
WHEN~ it's bombarded with too much of thinking.
I realized that certain people tend to think think think and think~
and certain people just don't think and just do it~
People are becoming more skeptical when think too much
They can take Minor flaw as though holding a Bomb
why bother magnifying it?
recently I've found another angle in life.
the awakening moment by knowing this person, A.
I would say, A is so much different from most people i know.
To me, A's thinking, always have utmost reasonable personal opinion.
I have no offense at all. What A said is logical, true and yet~
"why bother magnifying it?"
to answer the question above....
I hinted A indirectly and gave me this:
"is tat they feel the need to justify their words/action... not so much as to justify to crowd but mostly their conscience.. cuz by giving a reason it carries as much weight tat justify their thought"
It seems like My view got blocked all these years.
A came in as my "eye opener" in life.
Always provide facts with views from different angles!
this is what i call a holistic person.
I've never thought of it, haha!
always so neutral in answering Qs~
learnt sumthing new!
A: "We change, not environment change. or we stick long enough to become like our environment..sumthing like tat"
The Gosho mentioned, "When the skies are clear, the ground is illuminated"
Skies refer to life, and ground refer to environment.
when the "life" is clear, the "environment" is illuminated.
make sense in both literally and spiritually
WHEN~ it's bombarded with too much of thinking.
I realized that certain people tend to think think think and think~
and certain people just don't think and just do it~
People are becoming more skeptical when think too much
They can take Minor flaw as though holding a Bomb
why bother magnifying it?
recently I've found another angle in life.
the awakening moment by knowing this person, A.
I would say, A is so much different from most people i know.
To me, A's thinking, always have utmost reasonable personal opinion.
I have no offense at all. What A said is logical, true and yet~
"why bother magnifying it?"
to answer the question above....
I hinted A indirectly and gave me this:
"is tat they feel the need to justify their words/action... not so much as to justify to crowd but mostly their conscience.. cuz by giving a reason it carries as much weight tat justify their thought"
It seems like My view got blocked all these years.
A came in as my "eye opener" in life.
Always provide facts with views from different angles!
this is what i call a holistic person.
I've never thought of it, haha!
always so neutral in answering Qs~
learnt sumthing new!
A: "We change, not environment change. or we stick long enough to become like our environment..sumthing like tat"
The Gosho mentioned, "When the skies are clear, the ground is illuminated"
Skies refer to life, and ground refer to environment.
when the "life" is clear, the "environment" is illuminated.
make sense in both literally and spiritually
Monday, July 21, 2008
Jump! can't u see the pothole?
Realizing a mistake been made is important
But, Correcting the mistake is difficult.
Learn to walk, you'll need to fall.
Learn to achieve goals, you'll need failures.
Some people learn the hard way to get things right.
Some people never bother about mistakes made.
So long as they are the shadow of life, so long the mistakes remain.
Failures are essential to strive for success,
To strive for success, one must harbor failures.
It is important to see every difficulties as opportunities,
instead of to see opportunities as difficulties.
Opportunity is always there, within our grasp.
Stretch out and grab!!
But, Correcting the mistake is difficult.
Learn to walk, you'll need to fall.
Learn to achieve goals, you'll need failures.
Some people learn the hard way to get things right.
Some people never bother about mistakes made.
So long as they are the shadow of life, so long the mistakes remain.
Failures are essential to strive for success,
To strive for success, one must harbor failures.
It is important to see every difficulties as opportunities,
instead of to see opportunities as difficulties.
Opportunity is always there, within our grasp.
Stretch out and grab!!
YEA, grab earnestly!wee~
//
"All animals are equal, Some animals are more equal"
-Animal Farm-
*kicks Napoleon*
All people are equal, Some people are more equal
All dominion are equal, Some dominion are more equal
And death shall have no dominion!
"All animals are equal, Some animals are more equal"
-Animal Farm-
*kicks Napoleon*
All people are equal, Some people are more equal
All dominion are equal, Some dominion are more equal
And death shall have no dominion!
And death shall have no dominion.
Under the windings of the sea
They lying long shall not die windily;
Twisting on racks when sinews give way,
Strapped to a wheel, yet they shall not break;
Faith in their hands shall snap in two,
And the unicorn evils run them through;
Split all ends up they shan't crack;
And death shall have no dominion.
-Dylan Thomas-
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Because You're Special
This is how much it feels!
(MA Rehearsal)
The high-spirited youth, putting in effort and giving out the best performance.
Some of them been part of the band for more than 10years!
It's all about commitment and passion.
Going for band practices every thurs and sat, hitting 100% attendance is not an easy task.
The ups and downs while being a part of them (pic above). =D
Performances again and again and again~ can't even count with fingers..
This is the very FIRST time, watching them, and not performing.
Some of them been part of the band for more than 10years!
It's all about commitment and passion.
Going for band practices every thurs and sat, hitting 100% attendance is not an easy task.
The ups and downs while being a part of them (pic above). =D
Performances again and again and again~ can't even count with fingers..
This is the very FIRST time, watching them, and not performing.
All these while, I've been performing and sometimes starts complaining
"erm, u all perform la..mayb i wont b able to make it lo" *grins*
MA will be held next sat 26 july, truly a biggie event of all~ It involve 4 cultural groups to make it successful~ estimated performers:
-FYSB = 70 ppl
-KCO = 35 ppl
-GCO = 6-7 ppl
-HAD = 10 ppl
Total = 121 ppl
wahaha that's only performers~ excluding stage crew, multimedia group, audio group, sokahan & byakuren, and lighting group that supports us!
Being a committee in this event is truly a BIG BANG challenge for me.
my 1st time, ahaha well not an excuse =D
Juggle time with Studies, MA, band and some bili bala stuffs (means personal probs la)
IF it's not Handle properly, May Gone Cockoo~
So may sometimes see me with swollen eyes on mon~ XD or panda eyes!
Preparation started months ago~ march~
Having meetings, all the way to a fren's house at... somewhere in cheras.
Thank you for having the Big HEad of MA to fetch me at puchong from his tmn desa, to CHERAS Frankly speaking, to get it started it the hardest part of all..
WE've faced many many many~ probs la of course..
kept changing the flow, ideas, etc etc
and also~ HOW? how how? how how how?
only 5 committees + 1 advisor = 6 brains to be squashed, to handle the biggie event
Not knowing how to present the idea of "The encounter of Eastern n Western music".
How it links? erkkkkkk how let audience understand how eastern n western music links??
We want MORE! NEW IDEAS! change the traditional way~ Let's start anew!
I hv more to learn~
this is an opportunity for me to gain new experience...
Im Glad to work with this team! I love it too! though there are some undesirable things (of course there will la dude) but WE WORK AS A TEAM! and not as an individual..
This is what I've learnt.. TEAMWORK =D
On that day, I'll b in charging of multimedia, thus, wont b performing T_T
sad~ I'll deeply miss playing with them! 8yrs been playing with them!
it's beyond words to describe how i feel w/o performing with them
Tears came rolling down while listening to them playing~
Especially "Pomp and Circumstances".. I was sooo worried about how they played it~
But darling, It's time for u to leap forward and grow. One day, they'll also have commitments and challenge it. =D we'll grow babeyyy!
I'd ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY darlingssss~~
[Alex, Pak Wai, Ye Lin, Chee Weng, Cheng Shen, Poh Yin, Mee Ka and Sinyi]
T_____________T
I Love You Guys!
My "Family" always!
Some Big Events of my life
The effort of all these years~
It's still raging..
Y.O.U.T.H
Let's Spread out your Wings and Touch the S.K.Y
Courageous
Adventurous
Ambitious
Delicious =D
Band Exchange with Kote Kitai Music Band and Musique Inspiration Band
We've Gone Through It All Together
Will always my special darlingssss in my heart~
I shall never forget~
The Joy and Sorrow we've ventured..
-KCO = 35 ppl
-GCO = 6-7 ppl
-HAD = 10 ppl
Total = 121 ppl
wahaha that's only performers~ excluding stage crew, multimedia group, audio group, sokahan & byakuren, and lighting group that supports us!
Being a committee in this event is truly a BIG BANG challenge for me.
my 1st time, ahaha well not an excuse =D
Juggle time with Studies, MA, band and some bili bala stuffs (means personal probs la)
IF it's not Handle properly, May Gone Cockoo~
So may sometimes see me with swollen eyes on mon~ XD or panda eyes!
Preparation started months ago~ march~
Having meetings, all the way to a fren's house at... somewhere in cheras.
Thank you for having the Big HEad of MA to fetch me at puchong from his tmn desa, to CHERAS Frankly speaking, to get it started it the hardest part of all..
WE've faced many many many~ probs la of course..
kept changing the flow, ideas, etc etc
and also~ HOW? how how? how how how?
only 5 committees + 1 advisor = 6 brains to be squashed, to handle the biggie event
Not knowing how to present the idea of "The encounter of Eastern n Western music".
How it links? erkkkkkk how let audience understand how eastern n western music links??
We want MORE! NEW IDEAS! change the traditional way~ Let's start anew!
I hv more to learn~
this is an opportunity for me to gain new experience...
Im Glad to work with this team! I love it too! though there are some undesirable things (of course there will la dude) but WE WORK AS A TEAM! and not as an individual..
This is what I've learnt.. TEAMWORK =D
On that day, I'll b in charging of multimedia, thus, wont b performing T_T
sad~ I'll deeply miss playing with them! 8yrs been playing with them!
it's beyond words to describe how i feel w/o performing with them
Tears came rolling down while listening to them playing~
Especially "Pomp and Circumstances".. I was sooo worried about how they played it~
But darling, It's time for u to leap forward and grow. One day, they'll also have commitments and challenge it. =D we'll grow babeyyy!
I'd ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY darlingssss~~
[Alex, Pak Wai, Ye Lin, Chee Weng, Cheng Shen, Poh Yin, Mee Ka and Sinyi]
T_____________T
I Love You Guys!
My "Family" always!
Some Big Events of my lifeThe effort of all these years~
It's still raging..
Y.O.U.T.H
Let's Spread out your Wings and Touch the S.K.Y
Courageous
Adventurous
Ambitious
Delicious =D
Band Exchange with Kote Kitai Music Band and Musique Inspiration Band
We've Gone Through It All TogetherWill always my special darlingssss in my heart~
I shall never forget~
The Joy and Sorrow we've ventured..
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Oh Me?
what's tag? why tag? haha anyway for the sake of having fun~
let's "Tag-athon" ba XD
8 Things I'm Passionate About
8 Things I Said Too Often
8 Books I Read Recently
8 Songs I Can Listen Over and Over Again
**oh dang this is like SUPER HARD!!!**
8 Things I've Learned In The Past Year
8 People I Tag
let's "Tag-athon" ba XD
8 Things I'm Passionate About
- My Life
- My Family
- My "family" (trb section) =D
- My band~
- My Darlings.. Dears.. sis..bro..comrade etc
- My Chumps!
- No Music, No Life
- People
8 Things I Said Too Often
- HAHA
- haha how r u?
- yalo..
- SHIT!
- My goodness
- haihhh
- heyyy
- HAHA
8 Books I Read Recently
- How to be Happy
- New human revolution
- Les Miserables (it's taking me yrs!) XD but me luv it
- why books? eewwww why? so not interesting =P poor visual aid
- Analytical Theory of Lingism
- -
- -
- -
8 Songs I Can Listen Over and Over Again
**oh dang this is like SUPER HARD!!!**
- Tattoo-Jordin Sparks
- Sweet Escape-Gwen
- Fergie~
- Carmina Burana-Carl Orff
- Pomp & Circumstances-Elgar
- Muse
- Jay Chou
- Rudy & JJ!
8 Things I've Learned In The Past Year
- U R Not Alone~
- I'm sooo fortunate!
- I'll appreciate every single moment with every single person
- Who we are~
- To see how wonderful the world is~ "sai gai zhen dik mei lai"
- Make a Difference babey!! *tats wad written on my green wrist band* =D
- I love me!
- WEE! njoy life~
8 People I Tag
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
- Anyone who Read this
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Adapavi~
Deserted area..
Broken heart..
just emotion is taking me over
pile up my worries day by day
not in the right mind anyway
//
psy106 damn tough
Difficulty level: * * * * / * * * * * (4/5)
Basic Requirement: Statistics, Probability Distributions, and Research Methodology
Extra Requirement: Critical Thinking Skills!! Speed, Strong mind
Description: Given only 2hours(120mins) to complete 85 taxing&brain squashing MCQs(85mins) and 2 cracking Statistical test questions(35mins, 17.5mins each) that required a lot of thinking, and data need to be manipulated b4 start calculating.
Comments:
A: "Not enough time ar"
B: "eh u guys had enough time ka"?
C: "Die la!"
D: "tembak 10questions"
E: "speechless"
F: "Never seen such weird terms in class oso"
Special Thanks to our Ms. Winnee for preparing such a challenging exam paper!
ah she must've worried about us not gaining enough knowledge b4 going into year 2 eh~
no wonder set up such toughies~
Hope to see her again in Advanced Research Method! =D
senior once said this "it's either u loves her, or u hates her" *grins*
Broken heart..
just emotion is taking me over
pile up my worries day by day
not in the right mind anyway
//
psy106 damn tough
Difficulty level: * * * * / * * * * * (4/5)
Basic Requirement: Statistics, Probability Distributions, and Research Methodology
Extra Requirement: Critical Thinking Skills!! Speed, Strong mind
Description: Given only 2hours(120mins) to complete 85 taxing&brain squashing MCQs(85mins) and 2 cracking Statistical test questions(35mins, 17.5mins each) that required a lot of thinking, and data need to be manipulated b4 start calculating.
Comments:
A: "Not enough time ar"
B: "eh u guys had enough time ka"?
C: "Die la!"
D: "tembak 10questions"
E: "speechless"
F: "Never seen such weird terms in class oso"
Special Thanks to our Ms. Winnee for preparing such a challenging exam paper!
ah she must've worried about us not gaining enough knowledge b4 going into year 2 eh~
no wonder set up such toughies~
Hope to see her again in Advanced Research Method! =D
senior once said this "it's either u loves her, or u hates her" *grins*
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I've gotten the Sparks in you
Life is short, that we don't even have enough time to hate people.
why bothering hating people?
Let's not waste our time hating people, but instead understand them more.
Connecting people and spreading the message of World Peace.
fear is merely an imagination. human suffers from own imagination that will never happen in reality.
why bothering hating people?
Let's not waste our time hating people, but instead understand them more.
Connecting people and spreading the message of World Peace.
fear is merely an imagination. human suffers from own imagination that will never happen in reality.
Till the day that I found you
5th July, a remarkable day!
Took me 7years to overcome this
Finally, the first step has taken!
I saw opportunity in every difficulty.
Appreciating each opportunity with Desire and Action
Living as if there will be no tomorrow
Thank you for giving me this opportunity
A space for me to cultivate my life
In the same alignment with people whom i respect
I shall never disappoint you
My Opportunity of life
//
When opportunity is given, courage is needed
wisdom comes hand in hand
and appreciation is essential
Took me 7years to overcome this
Finally, the first step has taken!
I saw opportunity in every difficulty.
Appreciating each opportunity with Desire and Action
Living as if there will be no tomorrow
Thank you for giving me this opportunity
A space for me to cultivate my life
In the same alignment with people whom i respect
I shall never disappoint you
My Opportunity of life
//
When opportunity is given, courage is needed
wisdom comes hand in hand
and appreciation is essential
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