H-O-P-E

In whatever difficulties unbearable situation,
we just need to persevere and fight till the end
and we shall see _ _ _ _
After having days of melancholy period,
it has finally come to an end,
Never give up, keep on striving till the very end.
This is what i see, Miracle!
it has been so near to me, yet so far to reach.
Perhaps a lil wisdom, and perseverance are essential.
I am Done With a part, this is just the beginning.
Another lesson learnt. Took so much of my emotional pain!
Worth it, so I've learnt to appreciate it...
I shall never forget, tears gleaming in the eyes of an angel.
It touched me by and gave me the clue.
thank you~ ^_^

Sanely Insanity Human Psyche Energy

Contents does not make sense to me. Partially, the Freudian approach is refutable. Explanation of Oedipus complex and Electra complex derived from a complex mind. A nice word to describe it, C-R-A-P! 5stages of psychosexual development might be applicable IF:

• less erogenous zones were involved (oral is acceptable) how about hand? people uses hand to seek pleasure too =P a grab for milk bottle (pleasure), or a touch on mummy's face (pleasure)
  
• Fixation in any of the erogenous zones are.......... no comment but guess Freud had a wayyyy too complex mind.

BUT but But~ ^_____^ luckily Freud's topography + structural model is applicable.
Me Likey Likey~ Freud's sanity could be insanity at times, and Freud's insanity could also be sanity at times. cool huh~ I'm so lovin' Freud's personality, not all his complex theories, Daring chap came out with such UNACCEPTABLE ideas and PUBLISHED it back in 19th century.
HE Made A Difference (MAD)! He Had a world of his own~ I wonder how Freud brought up his children. Anna for example:

• Oral Stage: Anna, Suck it all~
• Anal Stage: Anna could have spent most of her time for Toilet Training
• Phallic Stage: Electra complex, Anna.. GO KILL YOUR MOM, and come to DADDY -_-" "daddy will buy u a phallic toy, don't be envious" -_____-"

"...Anna did not have a very close bond with her mother...Anna and her father was different from the rest of her family; they were very close..."

• Latency Stage: Anna, "daddy brought you some GIRLFRIENDS to play with, put away the phallic toy" *Kesian Betul*
• Genital Stage: Anna, "bring your BOYFRIENDS home, I'll check for their fixations b4 you start a serious date"

XD XD XD XD XD XD Kesian/bahagia nyerr Anna... cuz daddy loved you too much~

listening to a CD, 1st time listening to it.
it's making me feeling worse!
feeling so uneasy, as if someone's squeezing my heart out =(
dont feel like crying, just the act of stupid mind playing a prank on my heart

WHO AM I?

it's not always good being too ambitious.
luckily no serious "stuffs" develop, else ima in deep shit
am i denying? nolahhhh -_-"
can u und me?
yong yi sau seung dik lui yan~ playing now
put it aside~

sighhhhh..... hope it doesn't make it worse

sigh~

i've always been watching drama~
watching too much will eventually put myself in one of those characters
after having too much, im now being part of it
seeing how much drama i could create while others watching me
it was merely a plain incident, happened for no reason
it's always better to have plan B standing by
never give be over ambitious while not having enough equipments to support u
no plan B? when sky falls down, my nuts are in trouble
lost in confusion, tomorrow is a total mystery
today, might be holding on with a great bondage,
but u'll never know wad will happen to it tomorrow
it might falls apart and leaving you far behind
im afraid to loose one...
no matter what it is, i'll still treat u as how we used to be
cant afford to loose it...no~
things may gone for a 180 change!
not gonna make it happen~

in deep melancholy~
or my fren been feeding me with worse scenario cases so that i could accept the truth if it happens to be hurtful.. so that will make me feel better?
lets anticipate whats for tomorrow~
remains a history~

Warning!! The Mute Is Yelling For Help.

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A Warning Has Been Given And Writer Is Not Responsible For Reader's Any
Undesirable Circumstances.
This Post Has No Right To Be On Any Court Cases In Any Country,
Neither As An Evidence For Any Subject Purposes, As It Is Merely A Catharsis
And Writer May Write Points Out From The Subconscious, Free Association.


unexpected situation arose from no where
unexpected excuses were given
unknown intention yet to be found
never underestimate the power of human mind
never make attributions based on age
All were just mind tricks to manipulate

watch out for fishy situation
if someone attempt to get close to you
think thrice and never establish easy-going trust
it could be deadly

I have not experience it but thank goodness
I've been warned before putting my hands on it
thank goodness...
//
dislike grapevines~
why bother gossiping about another person's issue and MAGNIFY it?
it's degrading yourselves and it's feeding u with no benefit.
what's more, seeing only one side of the coin and making conclusion over it.
blaming others from what you "seen" and telling the entire world solely based on what you've "seen".
your position is so damn high, tonnes of respects for you and YET, this how your real-self are like. Revealing your true colours ain't it?
Fully utilize the brain, don't ignore the left side. Perhaps, you need to train yourself how to use the left brain. I'll recommend you "Left-brain exercise for Dummies"
could someone please understand my current situation? IN DEAD SHIT!
people are abusing with power, ranking, and majority. BUT THEY HAVE LEFT OUT THE TRUTH!
people with power, rules, ignore the truth..
yea right~ hello~ IF you are smart enough then please bother to listen to BOTH sides of the coin, and then only find out solution for it. and not making it worse.
I am IN great anger now, even though I am not the one in trouble, I am not the innocent scape goat either BUT I am the only one who knew+saw the truth. And that is my close friend! You Are Involving MORE and MORE innocent souls into this matter. If This prolonged, the section will collapse, and You're Diffusing it to entire band. All PP SC knew! They Aren't suppose to know, Aren't suppose to get hands into another person's PRIVATE LIFE! understand me? it's private life! Puhleaseeeee Respect them~~ you think power can overthrown anything you want? and why are SC PP bother to spread the news? Sake of Pleasure? huh? Seeing innocent people in trouble and getting entertained by it? Sadist!
I trusted you wrongly, I shouldn't look up so high on you.
Sigh~
Have Mercy on them please!! Be Emphatic please!! You're Wise Enough to Think Smarter. And If this issue is being brought up for a court case, it will be tremendously dramatic.

Will Someday Get Haunted By Guilt!
What Goes Around Comes Around~
You Will Be Responsible For What You've Done
Don't Ever Try To Lie
Two Faces Doesn't Solve Your Problem
Simple Sorry Will Do but U're In still in The State of Denial
We tried to help you, but you wouldn't appreciate it..
We've Tried our best and Ended Up Being BLAMED in return
THANK YOU for treating us so nice~


TRUTH SPEAKS FOR THEMSELVES!

i still care for u as my friend

(Alcohol/beers are my best friends) "只有烧酒是我的好朋友"

What can i do now?
i feel so.... totally in responsibility for this~
erm... to think about it, am i suppose to be responsible about this?
How to move my next piece on chess board?
Im feeling guilty...
flip side of d coin~
hey why should i be guilty of it?
wasn't me to force him to drink.
i've been trying to talk to him~ but not much response..
i wouldn't know about it until i read the group blog.

full of thoughts running in my head now..
my heart "cries" when i got to understand the meaning chinese words.
because i still treat him as my friend! i still care for him but why are you doing that to yourself?
sigh~~~~ i have no comment for that...

Bon Voyage

sentimental songs always the top choice
love the piano melodies T_T
good bye my love~ i know u like this song too
i only care about u~ i know u like this too
we played it together~ we know~

no matter how much mistakes u did
no matter how much lies u created
no matter how much attention seek
no matter how much love u seek
I don't give it a damn shit
but one thing i know, u're special and deserve for another chance.
I'll give u tonnes of chances to make a better change in you.
i know u will...someday...

you made me realize this fact
now that u're leaving us behind
and might not even be back..

we'll be waiting you for the next concert with us..
remember our deal? promised..
dun cry la soh poh...
feii yung..
pauline..
lee tai..
i will miss you..